THE ROLL-A-COASTER

Going to the amusement park is always fun...
Playing games and making decisions on the scariest ride to attempt is exciting.

THE ROLL-A-COASTER just a ride at an amusement park???
THE ROLL-A-COASTER such an adrenaline rush
THE ROLL-A-COASTER the ride is like none you have ever experienced, it consume your very being. It take no prisoner and it leaves you breathless.

What happen when the ride you've enjoyed become an emotional cycle? All the talking, begging and pleading has no effect on the power of THE ROLL-A-COASTER. The common sense within is gone. It consume your very being and all you want is RELEASE and RELIEF.
Intelligence, Money and Education plays no factor. I asked WHY but make excuses... emotionally I'm drained, physically I'm tired and mentally I'm done.
This Roll-A-Coaster is a ride and making that decision not to ride is simple but the damage is already done and the end isn't near.

Release me... I tell you so I can re-leave myself from the harsh grip of THE ROLL-A-COASTER

Hello

HELLO

H= HARDY
E= EXTINGUISH
L= LADEN
L= LASS
O= OUT-LET

BOLD AND ROBUST
TO PUT AN END TO
HEAVILY BURDENED
A YOUNG GIRL OR WOMAN
AN EXIT

WHAT AM I SAYING????? HELLO

The misunderstanding is always misunderstood...

The misunderstanding is always misunderstood...

Knowing is have the battle, when we know better we trend to do better.
What happen when we know what we need to do and continue down a disrupted path?
I have been preparing myself for the EXIT of my lifetime. I know it might be hard but very necessary. I NEED TO TEACH people who to treat me. I have been done for a while and to keep playing your game is getting tiresome.
I love your swagger
I love your company
I love your eyes
I love your body
I love how you once loved me
I know better so therefore I will do better. I have love and now it's time to prepare for that next chapter in my life. My battle is won because I am no longer misunderstood.

ARE YOU OUT THERE???

Are you out there wondering?
Are you out there kicking yourself yet?
Are you out there with the understanding that your love mean nothing anymore?

Are you reading this is thinking DAMN?
Are you reading this and thinking IT'S NOT ABOUT ME?
Are you reading this and thinking IT'S NOT TRUE?

Are you out there still on your throne?
Are you out there thinking your shit don't stink?
Are you out there plotting your next move?

I know you're out there Misguided.

You're out there thinking in my most weaken state... I AM WEAK.
You're out there thinking you got me stuck.

Understand this... you may have power but the choice is always and forever MINES!!!

I feel so empowered but still haven't discovered my gift
I feel so lonely but definitely not alone
I feel so enlighten but still have to knowledge to gain
I feel trapped but not really free

I have not yet discover my calling but this journey I take daily is a great chance to rediscover my strengths and weakness.

Everyday is a struggle but without struggle how do one truly become humble and appreciative of success.

I will keep pushing through to accomplish my dreams.

IT'S TIME

Something in me said call and see, So I did and to much surprise my call went through
I started to leave a message, but the reality is clearer than ever
I spoke to you but that was only the WHAT IF inside me
I tried to make the conversation genuine but again reality is just that REALITY
Stopping myself isn't easy because we want what we know
Looking for that reason to say Hi, What's Up, and What's New has gotten old
Reality is... STOP.. STOP and STOP
Take a minute and ask yourself why do you bother when your reality is....
THE TIME IS NOW and IT'S ABOUT TIME

YOU GOT ME FUCKED UP!!!!!

!!!!!! Yes in deed you got me fucked up!!!!
How could you ever think that I wouldn't get tired of your nonsense?
Why would you think you're just to good to be forgotten?
I must give you the expression that I'm weak and I nothing without you

!!!!Yes in deed you got me fucked up!!!!
It's not hard to leave, It's not a tragedy that we are broken
Our time has expired!!
No more borrowed time for false emotions
I'm not her waiting and willing to give another TRY

!!!!!Yes in deed you got me fucked up!!!!
Thinking your love is what's happening is truly sad
It's the lies that you tell that destroyed the possibility
The chance was giving but you cowardly declined
The opportunity was there but you used it unwisely
The lifetime connection is gone and the Friendship is no longer

!!!YES IN DEED YOU GOT ME FUCKED UP!!!!
But tomorrow is a new day and new days bring new beginning's.

Unhealthy but!!!

I know now what love is...
I know now what it is to be loved.
I know what your love consist of.
I'm learning what my original way to love is...
Healthy or Unhealthy. What a question??
It's so healthy to just love you unconditionally.
It's so healthy to just be friends... Maybe Not!!
Unhealthy love is loving you when the feeling I share with you are not the same or returned.
Unhealthy love is when my heart is numb and my mind is confused
Unhealthy love is knowing that it's time to move on

I know loving you was so hard at first but now that I am present I understand that love isn't a giving, its like everything in life you work hard for. You have to put as much of yourself into it in order to reap the greatest reward. The power of Unconditional love and True love.
I am here waiting for us to experience GOD's greatest gift.. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE