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The supense was killing me... I had to know
Something ate away at me... I had to find out
The longing for time... The right time
I've invaded your space... I wanted answers
I feel foolish... I feel denied
You had to know... It was a matter of time
Time to prepare... My next step
Time to prepare... Your appropriate punishment
Punishment for an unspeakable crime...
Know the one whom heart you break... Because they might one day become your opponent...
I feel lost... I feel defeated
You won a victory... You won at my expense
The love I possess has intensified...
I gave you my love and you betrayed my trust, so how do you expect to just walk away...
I've let you go and you returned....
I been a friend through thick-n-thin
I've faced the truth... That is was never real, but how can I say that when I'm left picking up the broken pieces of my heart?
You moved on and I'm still stuck
Waiting to wake up from a terrible dream... A dream that has left me grasping for air...
If only I could wake up, I would see... the beauty that is in my reach...
If only I would wake up, I would see... My life is in chaos...
I want to die, but I'm already dead...
Dead from emotion, love, happiness, and forgiveness... Dead because a part of me has died... Dead because I am not living... Only existing...
So I say to you...
I FORGIVE YOU... And I FORGIVE MYSELF for making a mistake...

new Eric Benet - Sometimes I Cry

UNDERSTAND

UNDERSTAND THAT WHAT I FEEL IS NOT ALWAYS RIGHT...
I AM NOT DEFINE BY MY ACTIONS...
UNDERSTAND THAT MY MIND LEADS ME...
MY HEART IS HEAVY BECAUSE OF A RECONDITIONING HEART...
UNDERSTAND I AM LEARNING A NEW WAY TO LOVE...
I AM LEARNING WHAT TRUE HAPPINESS IS ALL ABOUT...
I AM LEARNING FORGIVENESS...
I AM LEARNING HOW TO HUMBLE MYSELF...
UNDERSTAND I APPRECIATE YOU BECAUSE YOU BROKE ME DOWN SO I COULD BE RESTORED...
UNDERSTAND I LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING
UNDERSTAND MY EVERYTHING...
I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING BUT IT TURNS OUT YOU WERE A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION...
A IMAGE OF...
MY TRUE LOVE...
MY SOUL MATE...
MY BEST FRIEND...
YOU... YES YOU... I CREATED YOU, AND MY IMAGE WAS DESTROYED...

I WONDER!!!

I WONDER IF YOU EVEN KNOW THE LOVE I HOLD WITHIN
I WONDER IF YOU EVEN CARE
I WONDER IF YOU KNOW THAT I CARRY ANOTHER IN MY HEART BUT YOU HAVE MY MIND
I WONDER IF YOU KNOW WHEN YOU HOLD ME I THINK OF HER
I WONDER WHY YOU LOVE ME WHEN I AM UNABLE TO LOVE YOU BACK
I WONDER WHY MY HEART IS HEAVY BECAUSE MY TRUE LOVE HAS MOVED ON
I WONDER IF YOU KNOW
I WONDER DO YOU CARE
I WONDER DO YOU THINK ABOUT ME
I WONDER IF YOU WOULD EVER COME HOME
I WONDER WHY IT FEELS INCOMPLETE
I WONDER WHEN WILL IT ALL FADE AWAY
I WONDER WHY I EVER BELIEVE IN YOUR LIES
I WONDER... I WONDER... I WONDER... WHY?