Hello world as of 12:50 am 09/19/2009 I realized that I am a PHENOMENON WOMEN
for the last two weeks I've been fight a battle within myself and for others. I can preach and give the most powerful advice however I for the life of me cannot take my own advice. In my life I have had trails and tribulation but never in my 34- years have I experience the things my friends are enduring. I have a friend that just found out her husband has a drug addiction, I have another friend that moved away from her kids to accommodate a man that wouldn't acknowledge her as his mate, disrespected her in every way imaginable and cheats like it's acceptable. Then my other friends married a man that's not affectionate nor loving, has cheated before and is unhappy. I look at myself and say I am fortunate to never have had to endure the things they are experiencing. I've been cheated on and mental as well as physically abused but truthful the abuse was mutual. I have loved many but loving self goes much further.
Today is my Women Independence Day I realize in life obstacle will always arise, what we do is of importance. First and foremost remembering that we are WOMAN and carrying our self as one is critical. I know we as women love hard but losing yourself in loving someone isn't healthy. I have pleaded myself to exhaustion and for what LOVE, HAPPINESS, COMPANIONSHIP... In knowing others you see yourself clearly I have degraded and devalued myself for someone who clearly isn't worthy. Moreover I lessen my worth because I lost sight of the Women inside of me. If you have to buy, pleaded or convince another to love you, to be with you, to remember what was lost... then move on. I loved and my soul is aching but today I made the decision to be brave. My lost is an unfortunate one but it's one that is necessary. I wont degrade or devalue myself again. Independence mean freedom of the mind, spirit, body and heart. Changing the things you're able to and accepting what you cannot is the second lesson toward a healthy existence.
Today is my independence day because I wont allow my selfishness to overpower my common sense. I wont try to convince another to come home, love me, respect me, protect me or want me when they don't. I won't become less then what I am a PHENOMENON WOMEN and the worth is priceless. I say to you don't respond, don't react, don't think about me, don't do NOTHING just do you because that's what important SELF.
Friday, September 18, 2009
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